It seems like I am always apologizing for going on a blogging hiatus....I guess this is just how I roll these days. I thought I would pop in and let you all know what's been going on since I last posted. Unfortunately we still have yet to sell our house. We have shown the house to a few people and we've heard "We love it and will definitely be calling you back!" and then....wait for it....NOTHING happens. I will admit it is very frustrated and I have spent a good morning of the past two months on an emotional roller coaster. One minute I think we've got it sold and then next minute I am planning out our future here because it looks as if we won't be moving. I am learning patience. And I will be honest and say I'm not sure I like it. I am also realizing that I am a bit of a control freak...and I am learning to let go and just LIVE. In the midst of all of this, hubby has been a busy bee finishing all the unfinished projects in our house and I have been busy cleaning and organizing and staging. It's exhausting both physically AND emotionally!
And today is the day that our contract on our new home runs out. I thought I would be really upset if we reached this day and our house had not sold. But I'm ok with it. I really like the new property, but hubby and I have been weighing whether going deeper into debt is worth it if we won't be able to afford the things we would like to do there (fencing, cattle, a garage for hubby to work out of) or if we should just downsize to a smaller property and have a very low house payment and maybe buy a recreational property somewhere instead. I struggle with knowing God's will in all of this and find myself wondering if God really cares where we live? I don't say that in a mean or disrespectful way...but I wonder if that is really what God deems as important even though we put so much emphasis on where we live? Jesus didn't own a house, right? Maybe freeing up some finances by downsizing will enable to us to be more generous and enjoy life more without having to work to survive. These are some of the questions going through my head lately. And I will be honest...when I think of downsizing to a smaller (and probably way less appealing house), I can hear friends and family questioning our judgment and making comments/suggestions on what they think we should do. I am determined to do what God wants us to do and try (really hard) not to care what others think. But it is a struggle.
I am also learning not to judge a book by its cover....metaphorically speaking. I am learning that no matter what the situation looks like right now, most often God is working behind the scenes. It's so easy to look at the situation right now and think it's hopeless because we don't have a buyer and we might as well give up on the new house because someone else will snatch it up now that the contract has ended. But that's putting limits on what God can do. I'm not saying that He WILL do them, but he most definitely CAN. He could be speaking to someone right now to call us because the have been contemplating looking at our house. Or God could speak to the owner of the new house to extend our contingent contract. The possibilities are endless! Yet, it's so easy to get caught up in the negative thinking!
So there you have it....a few of my thoughts about this whole house selling thing! I will try to keep you updated as much as I can, but in the meantime, please keep us in your prayers!