Monday, September 8, 2014

Change

There has been a lot going on in the Snyder House lately!  The biggest of which is the For Sale By Owner sign in our front yard!  We have been feeling the past year that the time was drawing near for us to start looking for a new place to live.  I really like our current property but both hubby and I would prefer to have more land to put out crops, raise livestock, hunt on, etc and the 3 acres we own now just aren't feasible for those things.  Despite only having 3 acres, we have tried to use it as best we can to create a more sustainable lifestyle by raising a pig to butcher each year, laying hens for eggs, a garden (although this year was the worst growing season we have had), as well as blueberries bushes, red raspberry bushes, strawberry plants, rhubarb plants, and a peach tree!  But my heart longs to do those things on a little larger scale.  So we put a for sale sign in the yard and have been busy both looking for a house and making necessary updates/repairs needed in order to sell.  And I'm not going to lie, it almost did me in...mentally and physically.  I really struggled with leaving this house.  The house where we have raised our babies, celebrated Christmases and birthdays, where we have had summer hot dog roasts over a campfire.  But God has been helping me to realize that HOME is not made by a house.  It's made by who is in that house.  I didn't want to give this house up without knowing where our next house would be.  I became a control freak.  And I cried and worried...a lot.  Then one day this past week, I finally had to have a talk with God.  I gave up control.  And I also came to the realization that staying in our current house would be acceptable too if that's where God wants our family.  We have found a house that we all really like that has 42 acres of corn fields, ravine, creeks, and pasture.  The kids had a blast exploring during our short time there this past weekend.  And I would like to think that it will be our future home.  But we can't buy our new house until our current one sells.  So for now I just have to trust God and know that He has our best interest in mind.  He knows the desires of our hearts.  And He has a plan that's bigger and greatly than anything we could ever imagine.  So although this change of possibly moving is stressful, the change occurring in me is good!